Trust Yourself

My whole life I was warned against myself. Scared witless. I was taught not to trust my myself, my desires, my instincts. Listen to others. They know better. Don’t have a center within yourself, live on the outside. Be afraid of everything. But most importantly, Be afraid of yourself. But then, those people that taught me, they were the ones who hurt me. And…

An Ideal Image

I realized that I always held a sort of idea of what I should become and what my life should become, and thinking that if I just learn a little bit more, look a little bit better, accomplish something, and then BAM! I’m there, and now I can just be happy for the rest of my life and not worry about it anymore. I…

Escapism

The biggest challenge for me always was to get out of my head and be present. It sounds like a very obvious thing that anyone who’s not mental would be able to do. But if I struggle with it half the time, does that mean I am delusional? My own answer to that is yes. I fantasize and imagine and daydream a lot. As…